So as many of you know, I have been working at the BU library for about 4 or 5 years now. I started when I was a freshman working summers, and had the same schedule up until I graduated highschool. Talk about INSANE! Working summer days in the library, sacrificing your time sleeping and doing the dirt that normal teens do during the summer, only to be enjoying the company of authors like Poe, Hughes etc..... WELL FOLKS!!! I think I might have grown to accustomed to this place, and waaaaayyy to much shit is changing. During the school year, since I chose to make Bellarmine my college of choice as well, I found out just how shitty this place has become. I have came across more rude ass ppl here since last August than I ever have had in my previous 4 yrs of working here. Why?? I have no idea......SO...with that being said, I think it may be time 2 move on...Lemme give u alittle summorized background as to why I think such.....
Well yesterday, I was checking my online time clock, and discovered that my time sheet ends on the 29th of May....I thought 2 myself "Hmmm""...."That couldn't be correct." So I approached my supervisor, who explained to me that I am now on a payment ONCE per month schedule, since I am registered in the system as being a student. Now wait a good gotdamn second....I dont apply for work-study since I go to this school, so technically I am registered as a casual labor employee, and just like any other person around here working a CASUAL LABOR JOB, I should be getting paid EVERY OTHER WEEK. Lemme break it down even further so that you will understand.....
Last summer, I asked if I could have a small job here in the library during the school year, since I've been a faithful worker for the past 4 summers, and since I was going to be going to school here, it would only make sense to get some extra hours in during the week. The head of the library agreed, so I had a limit of money that I could make. No more than 8 hours per week, since I didnt apply for work study and most of the hours here at the library had to be set aside for them. So I was getting paid DURING the school year the same way a work study would, even though I was under CASUAL LABOR as an employee and NOT a work study student. BUT, getting paid once a month during the school year worked out fine, because of the fact that if I would have gotten paid every other week, then my set aside salary would have been used up by December, so getting paid once a month, allowed me to have an income every single month until Fall and Spring semesters were done and it was time for Summer break....
So fastfoward back to now...So I ask my boss and she informs me that I'm now getting paid once a month, which pisses me off royal. So I tell her that its not right because of the fact that I've never been paid on that schedule before during the summer and it's very ugly that I'm working so many hours during the week, and I have no paycheck to look foward to. During the school year, I was working an average of 7 hours per week, so it was easy to calculate those hours and multiply by $7.75 to get my total wages for the month. But now, I'm loggin in 20 to 25 hours per week, and its soon to be more, once next week and next month starts....So basically, by the end of the month, they are gonna tax the shit outta my check, most likely leaving me with what I would probably make in 2 or 3 weeks if I were getting paid every other week like I gotdamn should be. So basically as you can see..I'm getting fucked..
I went up and talked to the head of the finance department and basically got a "yes your a student. yes your getting paid ONCE every month. fuck off. if you dont like it, sorry." That type of shit hurts my pride. I dont have to much of it, but what I do have, I savor it like chicken fingers from Long Horn. I dont like to work. I believe in working to support your habits whatever they may be, good or bad, or WORKING to LIVE but I dont believe in LIVING to WORK. This job has completely consumed my life and I think its time to try out a different environment.
You wanna know how I know its time for me to leave??? Because it's gotten to the point where I can't say no. I get asked to take on extra shifts all the time and I cannot say no. Why?? Cause I'm being made into a bitch I guess.....The least these mutherfuckers could do is pay me like they pay everybody else that has the label of casual labor....
Yesterday I went home infuriated and it just so happens that my grandparents were there for an afternoon visit. Something told me to say my hello's and go 2 my room, but foolishly, when I found out the news about my bullshit pay, I called my mother and told her, who in turn decided to bring it up as soon as I was walking into the room to speak to my grandparents. FUCK MY LIFE....So I got a big bullshit speech on how my mother wouldn't care if they paid her once a month as long as she got paid, which is an utter heap of steaming bullshit. If they were to pay her once a month, their would be no cable, no food, no cellphone no nothing. So yea.....cricket cricket.....Then my grandparents procede to give me some old time civil rights slave speech about how they remember how they have worked a job and got paid once a month or didn't get paid at all. And I'm sittin their thinking, well....My grandfather was a father when he was a boy, so yea...he probably did get paid once a month...And my grandma...I love her 2 death, but her relation to my situation wasn't even coherant cuz I quit listening to her when I quit listening to my grandfather. So yea.....once again....cricket cricket....My stepfather, the seemingly only person in the room who understood where I was coming from thought that was bullshit as well....He says, well I dont think its right either. Their gonna tax him so hard when he gets that big check that he's not really going to be making much of anything...EXACTLY....My mother goes "Thanks for telling him that"....AS IF I'M NOT GONNA FUCKING REALIZE IT WHEN I GET MY CHECK AND THE TAX MAN HAS TAKEN GOTDAMN NEAR HALF OF IT!!! So that just pissed me off completely. (Sidenote...My step pops works at Ford, so he knows a thing or two about gettin fucked over......) And after awhile I said calmly.....Look you all.....I don't care about what the next person is getting paid, I dont give a shit. I get up and go 2 work everyday, and I wanna get paid the way I deserve to get paid. I dont care about how you guys feel about me getting paid, or how you wouldn't mind, because the difference between me and you is..YOUR YOU, AND I'M ME.....This job has fucked me over EVERY single year I've been their and I'm tired of it. The first year they didnt even PAY me my first check. My mom had to go down to the office and go off. Last year they had me working EVERYDAY. Monday through gotdamn Sunday because they had a shortage of workers, but atleast I knew when my check was coming. Talk about fuckery.. Then my mother goes "Well try waiting on child support which comes once a month". and I'm like "R u fucking serious? First of all child support isnt an hourly wage type of payment, and second of all, I wont be the one recieving the payments if that situation ever arises, I'll be the poor sumuma bitch thats dishin the shit out every month." ...So I stormed out of the room, because my grandma told me I was acting "unpleasent" and I just really wanted to tell her to go home, but in turn I left the house in a complete rage and bought a whole pack of black and milds, and a shitload of candy from the ARAB gas station up the street and went on a smoking/sugar binge. Depression and anger has once again set up shop in my life, and as I'm writing this I am PISSED. Lastnight I had what they call a SEIZURE DREAM (i used 2 suffer from really bad seizure's when I had my heart troubles as an infant). Where you dream of having a seizure and your shaking violently, and finally you wake up sweaty but your body hasnt moved an inch. It felt like someone was literally taking their hand and pounding my head up against my bed, and I felt as if I were awake while it was happening, which scared me the most. I only get those dreams when I'm under a tremendous amount of stress, and go 2 bed pissed, and basically all through the night I was up with the most craziest thoughts running through my mind...
Really, I just want to be treated fairly. I wanna get paid like I used to get paid. I don't give a fuck about what life lesson, or moral lesson this may give me, I just simply want to get paid on time, and I see nothing wrong with that. I dont give a shitty titty about how my mother thinks, or about how my grandparents think, because no disrespect but THEY ARE NOT ME! I love em dearly, and would put my life on the line for them (its not worth 2 much anyways), but they aren't the most supportive group of ppl I've encountered in my 18 yrs.
So whats one to do???? I pay for everything, besides my phone and my car insurance (my mother agrees to pay that, since she doesnt really pay anything for me to go 2 skool).......But everything else is coming outta my pockets. Groceries, haircuts, car washes, clothes, shoes, gas, outings, and sometimes loaning her money when she doesnt have a chance to go the machine (which is fine because going to the machine gets on my nerves 2...thats why i swipe it!). But do I complain?? FUCK NO! I'm at the beginning stages of being a "man", and I'm a fuckin boss, so I can dish out some extra bucks. No prob! But with about roughly a stack, with a 3rd of it sitting away in Savings, I'm comin down alil bit on sum bullshit times. I dont touch my savings, cause thats hardtimes money, where if I ever needed to fuck around and bail myself out for some dumbass reason....or if wanted to invest in some stock or some shit, I would have the money to do so at the drop of the dime. So i dont touch that money.....The rest is my pocket money, so thats their 2 go on dates wit my womens, buy clothes, or do other stuff I mentioned so now its basically down to eatin tv dinners....
I hate to work. But i do it cuz I need money to do the shit I like to do..Put out music, buy music, buy clothes, vans, chucks etc..Or just help ppl out when they need it. I'm a giving person 4ril, but with all this shit going on, it just makes it very very hard. I dont want a moral story right now. This summer needs to be focused on me getting my fucking mind right cuz i swear my hand before God, I really cant take this up and down shit no more. I dont want to be made stronger, I just want my gotdamn money like everyone else. I come in this bitch, EVERYDAY, with a smile on my face, ready 2 do my job, and I'm sick of getting fucked over...Oh by the way, 30 minutes ago, I was informed I might have to work ALL of June. Even during the night time!! Fuckin YAYY!!! and what did i do? EXCEPT IT LIKE SOME PUSSY ASS BITCH!!!! Their goes going to Florida to promote my music....So with all this being said...I'm done with this place. I dont like the way I've been treated and being here for 5 yrs now, I deserve some more fuckin respect. So yea....The End.....
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