Sunday, January 11, 2009

Tryna find a balance....

I'm a firm believer in education. I believe every American, especially Black folks should have an education and a trade. When I say a trade I mean a side hustle (legal that is) or craft that could get them money unless their education fails, i mean face it, even Jesus was a carpenter....Anyways I'm starting 2 question this school shit. I'm at a pretty good university, but I dont like it here. Honestly, whenever I'm here, I'm depressed.....Severly Depressed...... I'm in love with music, and I have no idea what the hell I should do. I'm basically stuck between a rock and a hard place. If I'm not being creative or using my mind 2 do something artistic then I get real depressed and start thinking about fucked up shit. I understand Travis Mccoy alot better now, cause I read in an interview that he feels the same way when he isn't being creative. I wish all this shit could just go away 4ril. I dont understand why life should be this hard.. I kno decisions have 2 be made, bcuz almost every decision u make has an equal consequence but shit. Things just arent working out 4 me right now. I try 2 count my blessings but I cant be positive when Im trapped in this type of mental shell. Lord..Give me a sign. Music is me and I cant change that 4 anything.

Monday, January 5, 2009

Sorry....Update 4 the new years..

So i havent been on here in a grip....i was basically enjoyin my break b4 skoo started bak again. i promised myself that i would take one week 2 work ( as in a JOB...sumtin alotta yall dont have lol), then Id take one week devoted 2 music and kickin off my blog, then then next 2 weeks i would jus chill and hang wit fam. So i havent really done 2 much more music but 09 will be filled with gud shit.....

So im goin thru a crisis. I dont know wat type of music 2 make. I started off doin dis hard shit, then i got a creative transition and made more "music". As far as takin a beat and lookin at it as a blank canvas, and jus bein very creative and well...musical. But now i feel like i want sum up in ya face type shit. its kinda hard switchin ya styles up like crazy cuz im really not sure what style of muzik i wanna be known by. its sorta like i kno that with my Words Rhythms And Vibes, im not gon get no play in no club or nuttin cuz it aint got no dance that goes along wit da cd. Even on da songs ive been doin the only thing on em that makes them marketable 2 a major label is the beats, the lyrics are filled with socio-political shit, its jus that the beats are hard driven and in ya face like on sum Public Enemy "FUCK YOU" type shit. iono. i need sum help on this. i pride myself on being a versitile artist cuz i can do both types of music but its jus hard cuz i dont know wat i want 2 be defined as. I guess u cant neccesarily put me in one type of genre.....Happy NEW YEARS WORLD!! UNTIL NEXT TIME.....